It was an 18-month breakdown, that’s the realisation, and it’s the shock of that sudden awakening and the trail of financial and emotional devastation in the wake of it, which will be something I will have to try and cope with.
Y’see I feel tremendous guilt. Easy to say as a friend, or someone with empathy for mental ill health that there’s no place for guilt, and I should just be pleased I’m getting through whatever ‘that’ was but I’m feeling bad on so many levels.
I feel stupid. I should have recognised the signs, I’ve had this ‘illness’ since I was a kid, I should know when my thinking is so distorted that I’m so far off the walls I’m in a huge endless dark meadow.
People with bi-polar disorder like me can often easily recognise their mania. After many years of chaos we reach an understanding of…
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